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ok, its scary... me and my sis heard someone played her guitar upstairs. ok, its freaking me out. how could this happened? but its true. its late now... and its scary. and i don't know what to do. its so bored. now i realize that, this world is so bored. i feel that I'm getting mature. lol. i want to be mature. i don't like having childish attitude. i like people with mature attitude, mature thinking. and yes, that's what i want. i want mature attitude. i want mature thinking. And I want to be mature. I feel that being mature is cool. And if I’m mature enough, I wont talk that offen, and i’ll have better results, can pay more attention in class. And if I have good results, I wan go to a famous arts school. I wan be a famous interior designer, and I know that will not happened. Yesterday, when I finished showering, and I went into my room wan wore my clothes, I keep thinking how will my life be in year 2009. Will I have a different groups of friend? Will I be in a better class? Or I’ll remain in 1N? this year, my results is worst. I wanted to post it in y blog, but I decided not to. Coz I feel that its very shamefull to let people know how bad my results are. Its very shamefull.  All my sis’s results are so good. Some more next year lynn’s going in to 3R. me? 2E? 2N? I don’t wan? I want to be in a better class. And all the while, jill’s results is the best. Am I rite? I mean my sis, anjill, not jillian. And sometime I keep thinking “why am I Tan An Drea? Why? Why I’m not someone else? Why?” I feel that I’m a clumsy girl. Albert Einstein said “ anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new” his correct, I think I tried lots of things that are new.

 

 

p/s: i love you.